Valora,

It’s interesting that you say that. That’s exactly what I’ve been thinking is going on with him. It kills me to see him like this, but at the same time, he’s making his own choices and without any regard towards my feelings…which of course is incredibly hurtful. It’s just so bizarre, it’s like a switch flipped with him. He never communicated with me that anything was wrong with us (we had talked about him being stressed at work and wanting a break from work, etc) and then all of a sudden he is leaving me. I really do  hope he can figure things out. I do think a lot of it is his internal struggle, but I also feel like this is all somehow my fault. How did I not see this coming and I must have been a bad wife, a bad best friend to let it get to this…that’s where my mind keeps going.

I’m trying to find ways to work on myself. I’m doing slightly better than I was when this all started…I still get pulled into a really dark headspace more than I’d like to admit. I know there are other people out there, just wrapping my head around the fact that my future might not be with him is so difficult. We weren’t without our faults in our relationship, but we had a great life (especially prior to the business opening) and I know we could get back there. I just feel worthless…it was so seemingly easy for him to give up on me and throw me out like I was an insignificant part of his life. Sorry for the rambling, thanks for sharing some of your story. I’m sorry that  you’ve gone through something similar, I wouldn’t wish this feeling on my worst enemy.