Dear Nichole:

I think you are on the path, what I call the Healing Path, you are on it, congratulations!

Must be weird to get a congratulations message when you just wrote that your heart is breaking, isn’t it, that you feel afraid and alone. But you are on the path because you are “Noticing and learning much”, because you are awakening to Reality.

“hurting and mourning what I thought was a bond for life with my family”- that bond a child forms early to family, parent or parents, siblings, that bond doesn’t disappear, it is always there. The awakening to reality is when we realize it is a one sided bond, a love that is not reciprocated. And we realize this is how it has been all these years, we just didn’t want to see it.

There is nothing more precious than an honest, loving bond with another, nothing feels better. As you can see in this trip, a restaurant won’t do it, an amusement park will not substitute for a lack of an honest, loving bond or bonds.

It is only when you see where to no longer look for what you need, that you are free to look for what you need where you are likely to find it.

Endure the lonely feeling, the sadness, let your feelings be, best you can. Healing is in allowing the feelings to be, it is necessary for the purpose of learning and moving forward on this path.

anita