Dear Anita

Thank you for your kind words. Yes, having that clarity does make me feel a lot better. However, I do feel that making the decision was the much easier part. In the last week there have been some rough days as well, but I guess that is just the part of process. Sometimes I end up thinking that if I will let myself completely move on, I might not want him later, if he decides to get in touch (which might happen or not). I am not able to shake that thought away. And I go down this rabbit-hole of thoughts- that it will take a lot of effort from both sides to even reach the point where we were. How I sometimes wish there was a way to pause just that part of my life as it is and not let it affect other spheres of my life.

I took the decision of breaking up to avoid any uncertainties related to my future and yet here I am, thinking about the same thing with a different angle! I understand that I need to give myself more time but sometimes the whole thing just ends up frustrating me!