So prior to this I’ve been trying to work on myself and not be triggered by certain things. L but this afternoon it became unbearable.  My partner was cooking outside and a woman was playing tennis. He laughed at something she said and this stirred her curiosity. I could see him from the bedroom window. Maybe he wanted her to noticed him. She is completely opposite to me young fit attractive and tall plus loud. Actually she’s there most week days and he notices. I am short, chubby , old and quiet. Anyway it started a arguement and the end of us.