Yes I feel awful whenever we fight.  It’s not constructive and I feel like the conflict never gets resolved.  The way he talks to me when he’s angry about something hurts.  Even if genuinely thought I was actually talking to another man on the phone right in front of him (which is absurd) it didn’t warrant him telling me I’m stupid four times in a row before storming out.  Another thing is the pattern of our conflicts are such as he always starts them but refuses to admit its him.  He says I push him to do it because I enjoy drama.  He then says a lot of disrespectful things to me (insults and accusations).  And then I have to wait until he’s ready to say my part.  Usually it’s days.  He blocks me out completely.