Dear Girija:

“Why did I have to get these circumstances”- I will ask myself the same question: why did I, anita, had to get the circumstances I was born into?

Well, the only potentially comforting answer I have for you is that lots and lots and lots of people are born into undesirable circumstances. I am one of many millions of people, and so are you.

When I was your age I had a dream, to exit those circumstances, to set myself free. There was a movie I watched at the time, The Never Ending Story, the original (I saw a sequel I didn’t care about years later). This movie was about a child leaving his circumstances on a quest, a journey. That movie motivated me to leave my mother, the country I was born in, to cross two oceans and land in the great land of the USA.

I proceeded to fly, a bit, at least, and I  know my wings were strong enough to fly high and far, but I made the mistake of going back to my mother and later I accepted and even invited her to visit me in the US. After each visit with her, it took me time to recover. After a dozen visits or so, I no  longer recovered.

But the movie, it did motivate me to leave, and if I didn’t go back, I would be flying high above for all these years when I crawled instead. Maybe you can watch it, maybe it will create that emotional desire in you. Maybe not because the movie is old and lacks the technological special effects available today.

anita