Hi, Michelle,

So I posted a short and a long version.

Since I was writing the long version afresh looking back at the men I have dealt with in my life so far, I would say it should be a passable attempt to summarise how it starts for me.

For that particular issue of mine, given so much info and so many details and all the different angles that I used to look at them, I came to the conclusion that everything is random. This is actually my new outlook on life as of two or three years ago, my new personal philosophy – that the Universe is ruled by chaos (actually, not too far from what physics says). One can always come up with examples supporting or refuting every single life occurrence and anything that may seem to be a confirmed consistent pattern or regularity if one wishes so.

This is why I am saying that if I go through an X number of men, sooner or later I should be able to meet somebody who would be a match (or may be not – pure chance). I don’t really have a list of qualities to put check marks against. It is more like I know what I don’t want, but everything else is okay provided that I can imagine myself with him.

But I may be wrong.

That is why I am so interested in what you would say if you knew all my little and not so little peculiarities.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart.