Hello,

I love reading interesting stories, and yours really got to me. I know how it is to feel lost, and this post is great for sharing and helping others.

I am no monotheist, but I would like to share some insights about your thoughts and feelings. Myabe they would help you see things from a different perspective.

If you see it this way: Do you think God wants us to be misarable in this whole life? Probably not.

As time passes by we grow, we change and evolve to become better versions of ourselves.  Maybe you miss the person you were before. Don’t be so tough with yourself. Your feelings are ok, let them be. We are all humans, it’s just our nature.

You say you are trying to become a better person, that´s great. And you should do it just for yourself.

Life is just about ourselves. Just about who you are right now and who do you want to become. Seriously, fell in love with yourself, then you’d be able to see the real beaty of life: when you manage to project all the love you have within you and share it to the world. I mean that’s like heaven to me.

About the relationship with this married man: it´s true, desire often makes us blind to reality, but you could always learn from it. Don´t let it drag you further., feel guilty if you have to.

Accept it, ask and pray for forgivenes, then, just move on. Don’t get stuck thinking God doesn’t love you anymore, or worst, that you don’t deserve his love! Deep inside I’m sure you know the way. Trust me on this.

My best wishes to you and hope to read you soon.

Billy.