Dear Karina:

“I work SO HARD to be a good person”- but you are a good person, aren’t you.. why do you have to work “so hard” at being what you already are..?

I think that this situation, this “adult friendship” situation activated in you an early childhood situation where you were punished for something you didn’t do, something or things you were not guilty of and there was nothing you were able to do about it at the time, you were helpless, helpless and understandably angry.

“I wasn’t really forgiven and my apology/ tears fell  on deaf ears and was returned with cruelty”- this is the adult situation,  but it wouldn’t have bothered you this much if it wasn’t for a childhood experience being triggered.

Anything to what I am saying here, you having been blamed for something you didn’t do, or  something minor that you  did, not intended to do anything wrong… and punished, then you apologized or  tried to make amends and your efforts fell on deaf ears, returned with some kind of cruelty?

anita