I’m only posting to say no, I am not happy for them having problems. I am no longer wishing to pursue her that way since the day I meditated and needed to tell her that money thing and felt relieved, it was a thorn inside me and the last thing I think I needed to get off my chest. If she’s happy than I am happy, I hope she always gets her happiness and I tell her that as well. I’ll be around every now and then to stay in touch sometimes but I have moved on, I no longer really care about those moments we used to have but I would still like to have those moments with other women. Those feelings I had? gone for weeks. I already told her I wish them both a long and happy life together but I just wanted to say that so you know and you wont think I am happy for her not so good news. That youtube guy REALLY made me think ( as well as the meditating) about things and put it into perspective and how I really need to change my mindset. The things that happen to me in my life is all because things I did many years ago and let it slide and slide even if it was unrelated to things about her. This guy used to live in ghetto area and lived a hard life and was a hustler but he’s about stuff like you can create your own reality and being kind to people that deserve your kindness and things like that. Not everyone deserves your kindness but most importantly, the number 1 thing is to FORGIVE everyone, that sets you free. I used to think you were supposed to be nice to everyone all the time, no matter what but sometimes you can’t. If they can’t respect you then forgive them but they don’t deserve your kindness.

All I need to worry about is myself. Don’t put women on a pedistal but love everyone equally and whatever happens to me in my life is because I let things spiral out of control. Own up to my shit, don’t make excuses, treat people with respect and as equals, do whatever you wanna do, don’t let people walk all over you, praise people when they deserve it, etc.