We have a lot of history going on five years together. he once lied to me and was on craigslist and other sex websites for two years talking and sending nudes back and forth to men and women. he said hes not bi and he has spiritually came a long way and want to be better so i notice his progress and any love he gives me makes me forget the bad. the bad hurts really bad though.

he is closed off and i react pretty intensely. we are both recovering addicts, when he lied i eventually relapsed after we both had 3 years together sober and i helped him get sober. i am confident in his sobrietty and my own but that lying ‘deception thing really sent me downward and i was sick for a year using heroin and i got endocarditis and we ended up reuniiting after a year of me using and he kicked me out and i just hibernated a year and got really sick. we reunited at the hospital where i am now and have been for 9 weeks on IV anitbiotics. we have a tender sweet love but he can be a bit womanizing and his mom even mentioned it to him. she use to tell me to let her know if he was mean to me and last night he told me he doesnt want to be like his father because him and his mom talked about it lasat night and she mentioned he can treat women like his father did.. his mom thinks that i turned his son into a man he used from age 10 to 34