Dear Anita

I haven’t been able to reply to your comments on my last post for a long time. Taking my mother off the pedestal was really difficult. I ended therapy 6 months ago because I felt like my therapist didn’t understand me.

I started a new job 3 months ago (I left my last job after being bullied for 2 years). It didn’t take long for my new co-workers to hate me then the bullying started. My father passed away a month ago. At the same time I moved to a new house and now my new flatmates hate me. I’m lost. I have no where else to go. I don’t know anyone who has had so many people turn against them everywhere they go, so I’m pretty sure I must be the toxic one.

My dad was the only person who stuck up for me and now he’s gone.

I’m in in a country where everyone seems hate me but I have nothing to go back to in my home country. I have a good job here and live in a dream location. Millions of people in the world have it worse than me so how can I possibly mess this up?! It should be so simple. I should be happy.

I don’t reach out and try to make friends as they always turn against me.  When other people try to make friends with me, it seems like they only do it to have an opportunity to actively reject me; inviting me to to go somewhere with them and then turn against me. They pretend to be my friend but they actually hate me. That’s the reason why I’ve always stayed away from everyone as when I do try to socialise, my worst fears come true.

I keep reading advice about making friends but what if you’re just not a likable person?

All I have is strangers on a internet forum. I read your replies to others and I wish I knew you in person. Where are the people like you in the world? Everyone else seems to have someone. I don’t know what I’m doing to make everyone hate me?