Dear ArtHeart:

When I find myself in a city again (I live outside the city limits of a small town USA with a tiny downtown, no craft/art supply store), I will look for multi-media journals. I am very curious to look at one (more than the 2D the images I googled on line), and feel the paper that withstands multiple mediums so well that you can write on it after it dries.

I hope you find a good therapist that your health insurance does cover. I wonder what is the disadvantage of being seen by a clinical psychologist (which your health insurance covers) compared to a psychotherapist?

Regarding The Ugly Book, you ripped out pages so to downsize, meaning the pages you ripped were many and heavy? Or were you trying to downsize what you referred to as ugly (“grief and anger”)?

I threw into the garbage many albums of photos when I was about 40 because I moved so many times and wanted to downsize. Also, I was quite depressed lifetime, and wanted to get rid of all the photos where I smiled, knowing that I faked those smiled. Plus, knowing I was losing that youth of my 20s and 30s, I thought those photos should be thrown away, together with the dreams and hopes inherent in that youth.

If you start another Ugly Book, I wonder if you will title it Ugly Book 2. I wonder what you mean by “the more intense expressions”.. so many questions I have, don’t I?

anita