Dear Anonymous:

You are welcome.

“My main question now is why do I get stuck up on a person like this.. Part of me keeps seeing him as this wounded little boy from having toxic relationships.. poor parenting.. difficulty with vulnerability.. And I feel for that and can relate.. what is this strong desire to keep poking and prodding and trying?”-

– I think you see yourself in him. While you were taught as a child to not express your feelings, to be strong, independent, you pushed down the little girl in you who was vulnerable and weak and needy.. so you are not aware of her. But when you see this man, you see the young child that you are- in him, and you want to help that young child, reach her. Or more accurately, the little girl in you is trying to reach your awareness, wants you to see her.

Add to it your sexual energy, the fact that you find him sexually desirable, that there is no other man around that interests you, add your stress at work and need for relief.. and well, it all adds up. But primarily, in the core, I believe it is what I typed in the paragraph above.

anita