Thank you for the replies, I know I’ve done the right thing, its just my brain playing tricks on me. I think its an evolutionary thing whereby the brain tries to protect you from the bad stuff (like after childbirth), but in this case it is not very helpful to have all the nice memories swirling round in my brain! I will try to be kind to myself and give myself time, the current climate unfortunately doesn’t help due to not being able to socialise, but it wont be forever and when we will all be free again.