So she’s been blocked on my phone the last few days. I was thinking I CAN’T ask if she can hang out in say a month for that hike with her man I asked, I would never forgive myself if I was a carrier and gave her this virus or she gave it to someone she really cares about even if we did do social distancing but it would be irresponsible of me to see her while this virus is still laughing at everyone let it infect them. But I can’t go on NOT seeing her so something has to give…I have to move on. It also killed me even still I am soooooooo fucking depressed and get really teary eyed throughout the day everyday since she told me her and her friend next door hang out do grocery shopping, dancing, events etc together yet I been asking for more time for years and she can’t even give me that, but this person she can for some reason I will never quite know. If you love someone you can’t have you have to let them go.

I don’t think I should tell her this, I already told her I needed a break and after told her she wont be hearing from me again. What do you think?