Alright so we had a 14 minute call (only planned for a few minutes), I just needed to really get it out and could not wait any more. She was not really up for much today so I didn’t do the emotional stuff, we just kept updated about our happenings like work, her huge garden she’s making and stuff and her guy is back next week, she’s about to take off for the store with her daughter and a hike after, she recently had her first dip into cold water. I told her I don’t want you to feel bad, I am not about making people feel bad but due to the virus we wont be able to hang out for a long long time so was wondering if we can both reach out more often? texts and phone calls. Also that I wont be hanging out with anyone until this is over and I don’t wanna infect anyone especially you or someone you care about I would never forgive myself.

She was trying to find the words, said she really wants to keep in touch still, she loves all her friends and it’s happened before friends upset they don’t hear from her, but it’s just me being me she said, doesn’t mean to offend anyone but she is not into a set schedule, more every so often when I am thinking about them, but she will communicate more by dropping a line and talking on the phone. Also that I was a little bummed when she told me about her neighbour seeing her for for like groceries, dancing, etc often and I don’t really hear from her also that I really wanna feel connected to my friends.

I said I wont talk about this anymore and she said “no no I want you to ask me things when you got a problem”, also told her I really like talking to her, she said I really like talking to you too. When we talked about our yards I told her I would send her a video of mine just for fun, i’ll message her to send me a pic of hers for fun.

Now she knows I want more communication, she will try but in her own way. But like I told her, it’s up to you I am not forcing you or anything. She said text anytime and whenever I wanna call just message her. She was cool about the whole thing, patient and caring, which  is good.