We are look to our partners to complete us , and when they don’t we feel let down . The only person who can complete you is yourself .

The first taste of love is so powerful that it a standard all  measure our Partners against ( whether is was a good experience or not).

So your feeling are normal and healthy. Don’t surprises them , rather celebrate the beautiful memory of this teenage crush . Often a letter to your 13 year old self is a good exercise .

You and your partner live in the now , where all beauty and human frailty is revealed . Love your partner for the wonderful person he is , flaws and all.

It sound like you have a very special relationship , I wish you joy and health .