I think many people have felt this way so please know you are not alone. Some times it’s easier find out who you are by being who you are not. for an example you are person who has started a journey  to find  their life purposes  by being a person who hasn’t found it in school, athletics, ect. You have discovered that your soul is craving something else and the only way is to explore. you are so young so i suggest start diving into something that has caught your attention and explore till you are satisfied and then go on to the next . My biggest hurtle when i was young was i wasn’t sure what i wanted to do , until i realized i have time to do everything so I picked a direction and once i found it wasn’t for me i picked something else  .   Remember that a stagnate pool of water grows bacteria and can become toxic, however a stream is healthy  and a live. the worse thing is not doing anything because there will be the “what ifs ” .the only way to find the right direction is by exploring  out what is the wrong direction .  Also research personal statements and make one.  example : ceo of campell soup ” to serve as a leader .live a balance life, and apply ethical principles to makes a significant difference ” oprah  ” to be a teacher, and to be know for inspiring my students to be more than they thought they could be . Mine is to embrace being a beginner in all things unknown to me  and have the courage to try…. the reason for this is because i recently turned down a opportunity to try a stand up jetski and someone said you just don’t want to make a fool of yourself by trying and they w right. so i tried and i did terrible but it was so much fun and it showed me i don’t want to me the person that  doesn’t try something new just because ill be terrible in the beginning.

you are young and im sure you see lots of adults that haven’t found their life purpose and it can be scary. Also please understand that finding your life purpose does not mean it will alone make you happy. your life purpose is just a direction not a destination.  Good luck 🙂