Dear Maria:

You wrote: “I feared of being judged if I showed myself.. something that I have a hard time but only in relationships”. Placing how you defined showing yourself in this sentence:

I feared being judged if I am myself completely, if I am vulnerable.. something I have a hard tome but only in relationships-

– do you mean that it is easy for you to be yourself completely, to be vulnerable with anyone and everyone except for men who are interested in you romantically/ sexually?

(Your writing is not clear enough. Please take your time and edit your posts so to do your best to communicate clearly)

anita