Dear M

Thank you, I hope you are safe too.

I understand how that feels. I truly do. I know it is so difficult to feel all these overwhelming emotions.

“It is scary, isn’t it, to think of death, death of those who were there and are no more, and our own future death. It is interesting that something we fear so intensely, happens to every single person. Heaven and reincarnation were invented to soothe this fear.” anita has beautifully written this. Thank you.

As a kid, when somebody passes away, you don’t understand the intensity of it because you don’t know how to feel or how to express your thoughts. When we grow up, we develop more understanding of our thoughts and emotions, and also self expression. A lot of things from our childhood remain unresolved, and need love, care and compassion, tending to, when they open up in you adulthood, in different forms.

Our dreams replay so many subconscious thoughts going inside our head.

It is wonderful that you tried to soothe your inner child.

At the same time, it is okay to feel all these things.

You loved him immensely. And you miss him. It’s okay to feel this pain for someone who was an important part of your childhood- and it’s important to grieve for them.

Grief is complicated. It comes in waves. As Rose of Yellow rightly said, it would be good to talk to a professional about it.

We are here for you, if you need to talk.