Dear Kristine:

You are welcome. “I know all of these things logically, I just can’t seem to keep my emotions in check and in line with my head”- that’s because the hurt of not being special, of not being #1 in someone’s life- is a very powerful and convincing emotion, and it hijacks your logical thinking, twisting it any which way, leading to a kind of an obsession with his past relationships. I know this same obsession personally, it hijacked my thinking as well, long ago.

I wonder if as a child you felt un-special, not a priority to your parent or parents; could be an old hurt like this that is fueling your current “Struggles with feelings about relationship” (title of your thread).

anita