Dear Anita,

I didnt think anyone would reply and I needed to speak up. I needed to tell my truth. Thank you for sitting with me in this.

I am tired of silencing myself. Like you asked me in one of your comments “did you express the distress”…I felt like I screamed it out loud but in reality I just smiled, kept it together and adapted to the new hurt.

Thank you for saying that part about being 39 and not having it together. Makes me feel less alone and that there are more people out there like me…

I appreciate the setting boundary examples. I need to practise them until they become a normal part of me …this is stupidly hard for me.

I will read your comments again. For now I will allow myself to just sit and try to remember who that little girl was before 30 years passed.

-a-