Dear Mak:

I decided to be back earlier. I will connect what follows to your previous posts and add more tomorrow morning (in about 15 hours from now), and respond to anything you may add before I return. This is what I currently understand from your answers. Please let me know if I understand correctly:

1. “I’m partially judgmental with others and one’s self”= when you feel disconnected, your understanding of people and situations is foggy. You mostly find yourself to be wrong, and it upsets you.

2. “I categorize people in different ways”= you place people in categories: bully people/ good hearted people; local people/ high-class people.

3 & 4. “I couldn’t balance between being myself and with others.. I put pressure on my self and sabotage myself when I connect with people I feel like I have to do so”= you felt so different, so separate so alien from  other people, that you don’t feel like you and them belong in the same plane.

You feel that the distance between you and other people is too massive, that it is too massive to bridge, that it impossible for you to interact with others because of that distance and separation. You can see and have a sense of yourself or you can see them and have a sense of them. You cannot see you and them; you cannot sense you and them. When in a group with people, you either feel that they exist and you lose the feeling that you exist, or you feel that you exist and you lose the feeling that they exist.

5. “I can’t let go while around people. Experienced a lot of shyness to deal with others”= you don’t feel comfortable around people, the distance is too great to bridge/ to connect. You and them can’t mix-  It cannot you and them, It is you or them.

Did I understand correctly?

* You mentioned “consciousness healing”, the “third eye healing” – I don’t know what that is.

anita