Dear Anita,

thank your for your reply.

Just a bit of added information – I am married 30 yo female.

I remember having an extreme separation anxiety as a child. For example, my mother was usually late to pick me up from kindergarten (age 5) so I would cry every single convinced she would not come. Another curious episode from when I was aber eight or so – my parents wanted to by a bigger TV and it was so scary to me that they would spend so much money on this one item and our financial future was doomed. I remember crying a lot that day. I felt enormous responsibility as a kid. I would go to school a few hours early. I would do my homework with coat and shoes still on. Being late would cause me extreme anxiety. Not that these tendencies were not recognized by my parents – they were but they were seen as quirks of my personality and rather celebrated, as I was trust-worthy and academically achieved. My maternal grandfather had similar tendencies.
During puberty I relaxed a lot and did a lot of stupid things teenagers do (occasionally skipping classes, smoking cigarettes etc.) – mostly without guilt.

My relationship with my mother has always been tense. She has what I refer as an „unripe personality“. She could be pretty savage at times and a master of giving me guilty feelings (for example for breaking a lamp accidentally, let alone something bigger).

In later years I developed severe hypochondriac tendencies and checking behavior related to my work.

I hope this helps.