Dear ninibee:

Regarding the lack of passion, notice that in your post before last you wrote that “sometimes it seems fine”, living at home, and I wrote in my reply: “we get used to Bad, numb ourselves to it best our brain is capable of”-

– what gets numbed out is not only the bad feelings (about living at home), but also passion (about anything)- everything feels numb, the bad/distressing feelings and the good/inspiring feelings.

When you lived away from home, you still had your mother’s voice talking to you and distressing you, and you numbed that distress out watching YouTube videos, shopping online, lying around.. numbing the distress and passion.

Regarding you not being capable of college- I have no doubt that your intelligence is more than adequate to attend college and higher education. Regarding your mental health, that’s different: at this point, you may not be capable of doing what it takes to enroll and succeed in college, I don’t know.

In regard to “I worry that leads us to the ‘end of the road’ in regard to our conversation, because I am stuck/ lost and unfortunately I do not know if anyone can help me uncover a passion”-

– remember I talked earlier today about empathy, how I didn’t feel it (and other softer emotions)? Thing is, communicating with you today, uncovered for me, that indeed I feel empathy and softer emotions today, more than yesterday. So, you see- you helped me further uncover my ability to experience empathy for another person.

What if I can return the favor, and somehow help you uncover a passion..? (I feel some passion about the idea of helping you uncover a passion!)

Also, now that I am more patient than before, I am more likely to be helpful to you, but I will not be upset if I will be of no help to you at all.

anita