@Anita, I told one of my closest friends how a big part of how distressed I feel is because I believed I was past all of my trust issues, paranoia, and fear that I gained after my last relationship. I had worked on myself, gained a lot of confidence, and learned how to stand up for myself. And when I found someone who was everything I ever wanted, my anxiety was still there but it got smaller and smaller as the months went on. It hurts having it pop back up now. But I know trauma is a cycle and now something that goes away quickly.