Hi Teak,

actually my sense of self worth started after the affair. i was always a confident vibrant person but now its gone.

i hear your point of view on how is demanding more commitment, yet that what i was trying to do all along, i chose companies that could help transfer abroad with where he is staying now as our initial plan was for both of us to live abroad together. Now after his father’s death he is having doubts and leaning more towards going back home, i would go back home too but the thing is there arent any companies within the industry i am working at (Private equity) while his job (auditor) is found back home and elsewhere.  Im just struggling with the fact that was it wrong that i let go of him cause i am scared this behaviour ( you made a mistake so you need to do X in return everytime because of it and because i was there for you) ? Was it wrong and naive that i let go because i felt that im adding pressure and stressing him out when it comes to his decision about going back home or staying abroad? What would you do if you were in this situation.. my mind is running a 1000 miles/ hour with guilt , fear and confusion