Thank you Teak for making time to read and answer my post💙

What you said is true. He lost his father to addiction and insanity. So with all of this what you said about him trying to save me at first looks true.

Its not like I dont like anything about him at all. I like That he is a gentleman. I like that he is extremely polite and respectful of others (professors, elders, and his family and friends). Most of the guys around me were very childish, just like my ex but He was more mature than them. He is also very responsible and generous.

About him being disappointed and heartbroken if he found out that you’re so unsure about him I tried to end it once. It was after a fight. I told him that things does not work and that it was better to end the relationship. He didn’t know what to say at first. In the end he insisted that the problems started ever since we moved away and everything would be fine if we tried. He made promises and said that he would correct the behaviors that I thought were wrong and that his life would be very sad and unbearable without me. I felt guilty and did not insist on whether or not we should breakup I wasnt sure the decision to breakup was right and didn’t insist. I was and maybe I am still looking for my feelings to return.