Emy,

Your post caught my attention while looking for something totally different.  I joined Tiny Buddha to reply to you because of the synchronicity of the chain of events.

I don’t “believe” in multiple lives, I have memories of them.  I can affirm that there is a lot more going on behind the scenes in the life we live in day to day earth.  Sorting out what is actual vs what is just imagination is very difficult within social media.  I’ll address your questions and the dialog the precedes.

First question to answer would be about me.  Why should you take my word for anything?  The answer to that question is DON’T.  You have to decide for yourself from your own inner guidance, however you personally define it.  What I can say is that my personal experience is somewhat similar to yours from the other side of the aisle.  I met my twin flame 7 years ago in circumstances somewhat similar to yours.  I now live with that person.  I also have a lifelong (74 years old) interest and aptitude for things non physical, so I can relate to past lives and psychics.  I also have a background in Tibetan Buddhism, which embraces rebirth and psychic activities.  I will be addressing you question from that perspective.

Your question is specifically, “what is the goal”.  By asking that question, I took it as permission to do a simple Tarot reading.  (I have been using Tarot as a focusing tool for over 30 years.)  What I received was a very powerful reading.

There are 5 cards (steps) in answering your question.

The reading begins with the definition of question.  It shows you have a definite tension between where you are now in life and what you have invested in it stacked up against having to let go of it to move forward with the life you CAN have.

The second shows that the situation is one of reaching for your goals in a very focused and forthright manner that has lead you to your specific question of what is the goal in this specific situation.  You have the ability to move decisively if you can understand what exactly is being asked of you.

The third defines what brought up this question at this time.  From the background given, you superconscious self has presented you with the situation because you are done with what has happened in the past and has dropped you new situation in your lap.  Finding a new path is always exciting as well as daunting.  I am an amateur artist and can attest to the most daunting time is looking at a blank canvas before any paint has been applied.  You already have paint on the new canvas.  There is Buddhist saying:  Better not to begin, once begun, better to finish.

The forth defines where your personal world is with this.  The Wheel of Fortune showed up.  For better or worse, you are on the roller coaster and will ride it until it stops.  There are no exit points once the roller coaster gets to the top of the first uphill climb.  After you are over the top of the first hill, you must ride until the end.

The fifth and last defines where to from here.  The Chariot is a marvelous card.  It is what happens when the roller coaster goes over that first hill and starts down.  That is the reason we ride roller coasters, the reason we chose to live a human life.  Everyone gets to the end of the ride, even those who never get on because they are afraid to get on.  This is your goal, to ride the ride of life.  Your goal is not to watch other people ride the ride of life. Your higher self is inviting you with the ride of your life.  Not the ride of someone else’s life.  Spend as much time as you need in introspection, but when your turn to ride comes up,  as the song says when you have the choice to sit it out or dance “I hope you dance”.

Joseph