Hi Teak,

As I get better and feel safer I will reach out for therapy in one of the classic ways. For now in the meantime, forums, online videos from credible trauma psychologists (like Dr. Ramani), and discord groups have been helping. And yes, I am extremely grateful for not only people online like yourself but my friends who have been amazingly supportive. I am very lucky there.

I am going to accept that they will never do the right thing and give up on any line of thinking in that direction. I will not wish he will give me closure or try to seek it out because I know he will not. I will not try to have any contact with him or his parents. If I see him I will go in the other direction and I will not seek him out in any way. I will write this letter and give it my friend and then put this in my past be done with it and just work on healing myself from this terrible trauma. I will realize that he doesnt win and I am not helpless because he will always be a monster but I can get well. My mantra will be success is the best revenge if I ever start thinking about it. I will work hard to heal.

I really appreciate the opportunity to talk to you here and get advice. Thank you so much for helping. Please send up a “prayer” for me for strength and healing.

Thank you again for your time.