thanks again…

sometimes I also think that I have to apologize to all people I’ve done wrong.. Even if they have already forgotten about it and don’t care at all anymore..

I wish I could just leave my past behind and enjoy the present..

About my self-esteem: I always thought that I’m not interesting enough, that nobody wants to hang out with me if they now the “real me”. My boyfriend now knows the real me. And we are so happy together. But right now I just can’t enjoy it. I try to “justify” all my mistakes in my head, but of course I can’t. They are just mistakes and there’s no excuse for them. And I struggle so hard to leave them behind and overthink if it would be okay to just let them go and concentrate on my life right now..