Hello Ryan:

I wrote to you in my post before last, April 26 on this page: “Often in your threads, you inserted long messages that your former girlfriend sent you, and messages that your former coworker and love-interest sent you. I used to wonder why you did that, since this is the first time I came across this practice in these forums”-

– the first time you inserted a message that an ex-girlfriend wrote to you was on Aug 2 2020, in your first thread. You inserted this, in part: “Don’t downplay yourself. R. If there were words in the English language to express how amazing you are, what a light in my day/life you are, and just how damn near perfect you are then I might come close to describing how much you mean to me. I don’t know if you feel like you don’t deserve to be loved or if it’s one of the other several scenarios running around in my head, but please don’t find it so hard to believe that someone could be so overwhelmingly fond of you“-

As you proceeded to describe that particular ex-girlfriend as an impatient woman who often lost her temper with her son, I remember thinking about the incongruence between her short temper and other descriptions of her and her writing style and content, including her elaborate self-reflection and the great length of her texts.

Today, it occurred to me: the texts you insert, supposedly from different women,  they all sound the same, as if authored by one person, and that person is you.

Let’s look at some of the text of another woman that you inserted into your post today: “I appreciate your candor. I’m not “worried” about falling for someone who is transient…I just like to know their plans. I’m not opposed to it. I do understand how it can be hard to give part of yourself … I wouldn’t feel guilty for falling hard if it was reciprocated. You aren’t awful. Really, it’s my own insecurities wanting allayed.. You are absolutely wonderful and kind. When I’m with you I am a different person. Happy and peaceful and life is wonderful. I thank you for that.“- these are your words, your style: formal language as opposed to casual language, big words, and the strong inclination to self reflect… in texts. You are often very complimentary to yourself in these texts: “how amazing you are.. how damn near perfect you are” says one woman in Aug 2020, “You are absolutely wonderful and kind“, says another Oct 2021

The current woman texted you: “It could be a book… ‘One Magic Summer’. Two lost souls came together and experienced bliss for short time“- reads to me that you are .. in the process of writing a book, or books..

anita