Hey Anita…

As you may have noticed, my mistakes are giving me a lot of trouble right now. Yes, I do think I did some of it for attention. But that's such a terrible quality, how am I ever going to forgive myself for that. As in this example, I've talked so much bullshit I couldn't even list it all, it's eating away at me every day right now. I think every minute that this will all be a part of me forever and it just won't go away. I can't do anything right now but think about all my lies and bad deeds.