Dear anita,

I apologize for the (very) delayed reply. I have been a bit busy the past days and I hadn’t have the chance to properly reply. For me too it’s quite interesting and enjoyable to communicate with you, so I’d love to continue.

Also, thank you for your kind words. I have grown tired of being angry and bitter towards people and in the case of my ex I feel he truly has done nothing wrong to have me be angry and resentful.

But to answer your question, even though I haven’t been able to reply I have thought about what you asked me. I cannot seem to place a time where I would have felt like a bother as a child in  all honesty, I cannot understand where this fear began from. As far back as I can think I would often worry about telling my mother I felt sick, for example, because I didn’t want to worry her. To this day I am the same way, I prefer taking care of myself first before I resort to telling her anything about my physical or emotional well being. I have also been afraid for a very long time to ask my father for things, maybe as an example I can give needing to buy something, because I have been afraid of burdening him. I feel this could stem from my father’s general personality and attitude, since he’s more of a stoic person who doesn’t show much of his emotions.

As of right now that is all I can think of really.

Malakai