Dear anita,

I would like it if you shared more about this regret, about the real or perceived past mistakes that you made, and the outcome…?

Tbh the physical issues in my body is created by my bad way of sitting posture, before this physical issues appears… i used to really hate my appearance (which is my facial features and my physical state) and i keep blaming myself for it. And therefore i didn’t provide any love for my body and didn’t try any method to improve myself. At that time i knew that my sitting posture is a bad habit but i feel lazy to fix it because i don’t have any love for my body and resulting into this physical issues. This is due to the envy i feel whenever i saw most people have better physical state and facial features, i keep comparing myself to them and i feel less.

The same goes to my regret back on my uni days (i’m working rn)… i feel so less of myself that i don’t take my courses seriously, well i never failed any module but my grades are bad and now i regret it. Every time there is a discussion about uni i’ll tend to avoid it because i don’t want people to know my poor grades. I also feel so devastated every time i saw someone posting their achievement in their uni days.

Right now as i’m older, i’ve matured in a lot of ways… if i have this current mindset i wouldn’t have done those mistakes in the past. Especially on my appearance as i can’t change it, i realize that life is much more than comparing myself to others… i used to thought that people might judge me, but the truth is people don’t care as they have their own lives to worry about. I just wished i notice this sooner.