Dear Sesha:

You are welcome.

“My inner child is still hurt from their behaviour to walk away when I needed them… It is good that I am brave enough to want to break through this vicious circle to be needy” – yes, you are brave. But every time you visit your father, because of the memories of him walking away from you, the emotional abandonment/ betrayal wound opens up again, every time you visit, to one extent or another, doesn’t it?

“I don’t trust my ability to jump high and survive. I am very anxious that I won’t have a safety net to catch me if I fall. That’s the reason why I hesitate and overthink to try new things or to meet new people” – this reminds me of an exercise I’ve seen done in group psychotherapy: everyone is standing up, one individual, with his or her back to people standing up behind, falls backward and the others are catching the falling individual. The exercise is supposed to build just a bit of trust in being caught when falling.

This is making me think: how can you, Sesha, how can you get a little bit of a real-life experience of being caught when falling?

anita