Dear Helcat:

I stopped thinking about suicide when I realized that I was close enough to death happening naturally, and I figured that there’s no need to rush it. I used to think of suicide in my teens (if not earlier), in my 20s, my 30s, got close to it in my 40s… through all that time, life had an eternity-feel to it, like…life will last forever, and so will this pain.

Now, being older, and with the recent escalated climate change, rising political radicalization and autocracy in the world, the current threat of a 3rd world war, the economic downfall…  and it really is one day at a time for me. No time for suicide ideation when life is today and tomorrow… don’t know.

anita