Hi Selina!

I’m sorry for your difficulties.

My understanding of your situation is that you have feelings for someone that will never return them.

Why do you think you are emotionally invested in someone that is unattainable and will never be able to return your affection in the way that you desire?

My advice to you is to put the time in and make some friends. It might not be immediately fruitful, but in the long run it will be much healthier. LGBTQ+ friends might be a good place to start, you never know if you will develop feelings for someone else. Maybe part of the problem is the attachment to your friend? What do you think?