Dear miyoid:

“I also try to get up before the heat builds up, it has never been so bad… I feel like we’re experiencing the utter entropy these days, everything is going bad. But it’s weird that besides the economy, the weather, the politics that are going bad, everything in my life is slowly going more stable. I feel like I’m growing up faster than ever, or I did grow up in the past, but only now I have the chance to have the embodiments in my everyday life“-

– an amazing, profound testimony of personal growth and actualization in the face of global decline and destruction.

“I feel like I almost never run from a bad feeling… I started to understand and face them at some point in my life and now it feels like I cannot run from them again“- to me, this explains your current ongoing personal growth and the embodiments of past personal growth.

“That dreadful emptiness hurts me if something bad is happening…  The last time it was…  1.5 years ago. It was the time I was being abandoned again, although it wasn’t a one-time thing…  after all those failures, finally starting to feel safe and I might lose this if I go abroad to work there. But I have to go, I would never be happy enough if I don’t take this opportunity“- you are not the same person you were 1.5 years ago. You have grown and therefore, you are able to take this opportunity and go abroad. Inside you, you have what it takes to make it happen. I am excited for you!

“About the coffee reading suggestion…  I have like a 5 min recording of her…“- excellent, you can hear the recording and perhaps meditate to it: relax, breathe calmly, maybe put a smile on your face while you listen to it (putting a smile on one’s face is not solely the result of feeling good, it can also be the cause of a good feeling).

anita