Helcat,

I see your point and understand where you’re coming from. Ultimately, I don’t want our relationship to end and while I don’t think he would end it, I feel like it would hurt our relationship more than it could ever strengthen it. It’s so out of character for me that I fear he might never look at me the same.

And the conversation with my ex really isn’t worth losing this relationship. It was a one-off idiotic mistake that I made that now I have to live with forever. I’m trying to make my peace with that.

I try to put myself in his shoes and I can’t say I would genuinely want to know had it been the other way around.

If it meant nothing, I think I would prefer for him to let sleeping dogs lie. I would never put myself in this situation again, I just want to overcome these feelings of guilt and shame.