Dear Sandhya:

“Last 2 years I have been having fun, met new people. etc. etc.“- I am glad for you, that you had two good years!

“Then it all started mounting at once…losing pets.. illnesses…  my own Drs. appts. and injuring myself…. Was god having fun at my expense“- that would be a cruel god… to enjoy a person’s loses, illnesses and injuries. Better believe in no god than in a cruel god, says I.

I remember injuring myself 3.5 years ago, dropped a tree branch on my foot, badly twisted and bruised my ankle. It scared the hell out of me… couldn’t walk for a long time, and not without pain for months. I thought that I will always feel pain in that ankle. Fast forward, I don’t even remember which ankle it was… but I do have some new pain in my knees (weakening or disappearing cartilage, I suppose). Ever since the injury of 3.5 years ago, which happened because I wasn’t paying attention, I remind myself every day to calm my anxiety best I can and to pay attention. I say this to myself because the calmer a person, the more attentive one is, and the fewer the chances for accidents and injuries.

“What doesn’t kill you makes  you stronger” is B.S.?“- yes, I think so.

“the adage; ‘God doesn’t give you more than you can handle’ is not true, since lots of people prove that wrong daily” – I agree.

“When it rains it pours”- not where I live. Here, when it rains, it hardly ever pours.

“Life was easier when I was younger” – you are fortunate. My life was more difficult as a child throughout my 20s and beyond, than it is now.

I hope to read more from you!

anita