Tee, thank you for your comment I think you got it just right I was worried my explanation of this situation would not be clear enough.  Yes the only thing holding it back is me if I said lets be together she would do it.  I think this problem exists only from my point of view.  My last relationship was about 17 years ago about 20 years ago a very important relationship that meant a lot to me ended.  During these years I had become very comfortable being single I do some traveling once a year I ride bikes a lot and just various things. She has told me many times she is partly attracted to me because of things I do like traveling and being an independent type person plus she says “you’ve got it going on”.  I don’t put myself out there socially,  no Facebook or anything like that I do not have a network of friends but that is by choice.  She has really kept on me for a long time and she just told me how many times over the years people have made comments to her about liking me. I think from her point of view she feels like she has found somebody that can be just hers but with her network of friends I don’t feel like she would just be mine and I feel like this situation showed that. I guess in the back of my mind I had a slight hope that it could be the case.  In my life I don’t want to feel loss anymore I’ve always been content to just do what I do.  People have asked me do I get lonely and my answer has always been no but I think I have realized the loneliest times in my life are when I am in a relationship that’s when I feel lonely I seem to do better on my own.  That is why I am on here that is why I asked the question.  I’ve enjoyed our time together a lot and it has meant so much to me, ultimately do I think I am the right guy for her? I doubt it, but it is nice having a friend and I guess I just need to deal with things like this until I could decide to take it further.