Hello Anita, it’s currently 21:09 here in Europe where I am and I’m lay in my mums bed filled with sadness and sorrow 🙁 feeling like I no longer wish to live as I feel nothing will fill this void or pain that I’m feeling. I can’t shake the feeling of wanting to be her, I feel although I have so much to look forward to and a full life ahead of me, nothing is good enough if he isn’t involved in my life.

I go to brush my hair or look good but then feel what’s the point as he won’t be able to appreciate my efforts. He used to compliment a certain fragrance that I used to wear & ever since he left my life I haven’t felt the need to wear it as again, he won’t be able to appreciate it. I just feel like nothing matters anymore unless he’s around and it’s worse as I have no friends and no support system hence why I’m on here.

I hope you aren’t feeling too sick with your cold and I hope you feel better soon