Dear Anita,

Im going to take it one long term  healthy commitment at a time . Daily fitness 1st .

My mother was the first person that died that I was close to . I miss the support she gave me . Despite everything else . This will be my second long term commitment a healthy goodbye or just healthy acceptance that she has passed .

My son the doctors told me that he would eventually pass since he was about age 2 so I knew it would eventually happened I just didn’t know when . I tried to mentally prepare myself but it still hurt . My mom  died in her sleep , I wasn’t prepared . I didn’t get to say goodbye or anything .

The healthy version of me is valuable to myself and everyone around me .