Thank you for the replies. He was desperate to get married to me. He was pursuing me and I felt he needs my help. I was reluctant and told him he is still married and I can be friends with him but he wouldn’t agree. I think I have some soul connection with him and I want to be part of his life so I can help him with. I don’t know. May be what I have is sympathy and I also felt that my options are limited given my life situation and the horoscopes matched. Mine is a complicated horoscope. I had only arranged marriages. I don’t do dating. Now am in a different country. Was in an abusive marriage  previously. Know that he is not abusive. May be am ready to settle for crumbs people throw. He also said that am filled with negativity and depression and am feeding him that. I am alone and also lost my mother to cancer and I have mild depression. May be I repelled him with my constant complaints.