Hi Anita and Helcat,

Thank you for replying back! I am new to the community so it took awhile for things to get approved. I look forward to be able to participate more on here as I think it would be a good thing for me.

To be honest I am not quite well. Hopefully I can get to the bottom of what is causing these health issues. It has been extremely stressful with one thing after another, a potential cancer and dealing with an unknown. I feel very frustrated at myself for being distant and did not show as much affection as I should have.

I do feel very guilty over blocking him as I do believe he is a good person. I tend to try to believe that everyone deep down is a good person but some people just seem to have some issues that they need to work on. I think I just feel that he hates me or something as he seemed annoyed I wrote back and was very cold and basically told me to piss off. Its just odd as he was super friendly the week before when I snapped and told him to stop playing games. I know its a stupid worry but its just stuck in the back of my head. All I can think is I am probably not as good as the other girl he ended up with.

Based on the conversation, he seemed to be confused about some things in life and maybe that’s why he reacted that way? It seemed as if he was debating moving back but I honestly don’t get why you’d bother contacting me if you wanted nothing to do with me all of a sudden previously. The whole relationship he was just very confused and was a hot/cold person. He would be super happy to see me one day and then a week later seemed like he wanted nothing to do with me and was always judging me.

I do tend to be a chronic overthinker and an anxious-attachment person. It is something I want to work on. I am really trying not to think about the whole thing but it is quite an enigma.