Thank you Anita. Very kind and helpful as always. I’ve been seeing a therapist regularly for the last 12 months and will continue doing so. I guess I’m just wondering if there’s a way for me to get to 100% without blocking her and/or reaching out to her to apologise about not staying true to my word, or whether I need to block in order to get to the last 5% of healing and not worry about what she thinks about what I post online and/or trying to show her how good my life is. If I block I come across petty and it’s an irreversible decision to permanently cut all chords with someone whom I once cared deeply about. If I don’t block then she continues to live in my head as I feel “watched”.

Hope you’re doing well and sorry to hear you had to go through similar thought patterns.