Hi Val. I really feel for you 🙁 That sounds really tough – and especially if he has blocked you. I guess if I was in your shoes right now I’d be trying to give myself a cuddle, to say to myself that it’s ok to feel these things – they are natural. There’s certainly nothing wrong with you (and hey being 55 doesn’t mean this stuff gets any easier – i’m close behind at 51!). Don’t expect to feel any different for a while – it takes time, and if he doesn’t come back the feelings will lift. There’s emotional processing going on – under the surface – it will happen and you’ll make it through, you’ll see.

Josephine