Reading your story (yup, top to bottom) made my think of myself, and from one individual to another- I wanted you to know that you have my empathy and love.
Although I can’t offer you any truly helpful advice to aid in your situation I hope with all my being that you end up on top and find peace and happiness within yourself.
I’m rooting for you.
Though I run this site, it is not mine. It's ours. It's not about me. It's about us. Your stories and your wisdom are just as meaningful as mine. 